In the Book of Mormon a famous dream is rendered a couple of times for our benefit. A good man has been making his way toward the tree of life along a path with an iron handrail. Smothering darkness swallows him from time to time, but he holds fast to the rod and makes it to the tree to partake of beautiful, delicious white fruit. Being a family man, he immediately turns to find his family, wanting them to have some too, and sees some of them making their way toward him.
Two of his sons, as well as many, many other people, have let go of the handrail and are picking their way across an open field toward a huge building floating in the air. Multitudes of people are looking out from that building, pointing and laughing at the poor saps making their way along the path toward the tree. Some of the people on the path and even at the tree grow embarrassed and start making their way toward the building.
The building represents “the world” – foundationless but still hauntingly appealing – and the path toward the tree a journey of enlightenment toward a oneness with Jesus Christ, the fruit of the tree. It’s a recognizable enough metaphor that one need only mention an element of the dream to someone in my faith and s/he will recognize the reference.
I’ve been thinking, however, that we may have a false sense of security about our place on the path if we think we’re always on the path just because we’re often on the path.
I know someone who is desperately fearful that she will never be good enough, and just as most insecure people do, she often turns that fear to criticism of others. Nobody else does what they do well enough, can be trusted with her children, or is worthy of emulation or appreciation. To say the least, she is prickly.
She portrays an image that she is sure she is on the path, but she points at others, noting what they do and don’t do, making people around her embarrassed and unsure of themselves. She is as surely in that building as any “worldly” person could be. But I too have a vantage point from that building as I look at her and note her failings (whether or not my “pointing” is ever conscious or spiteful).
Perhaps our place on the path is not so easily defined, if a simple change of focus can move us suddenly from one spot to another in that epic image, like characters in a virtual reality that disappear and reappear in a completely different position.
Another of the interpretations of the white fruit is “the love of God” – meaning the love God has for us that he would send a savior and all that that kind of love entails. I often comment that faith is loving God, hope is receiving the love of God, and charity is loving like God, so it seems that if I am making my way toward the tree, I am exercising all three in expectation of coming to a point that that fruit becomes part of me.
If so, then I am moving through life with love as the medium for everything I perceive and do, or at least more often as I progress. When I look at this woman, am I lovingly understanding that her life must be painful and desperately frightening, and am I acting in loving ways to encourage her belief that she is enough? Do I refuse to take offense when her judgment is directed at me or one of mine, feeling that same love I feel toward one of mine who might behave insensitively? Do I have a firm enough grip on the handrail and a profound enough sense of the sweetness of that love that I am unswayed by hers or anyone else’s pointing, not taking offense or assuming I know her intent?
John noted that they loved Christ because he first loved them; am I offering that to this woman? If I am moving toward a oneness with Jesus Christ, then I don’t make an instantaneous jump over to the great and spacious building, point without merciful love at her, then make an instantaneous jump back to the path and move forward with my better-practiced charities.
Pondering this image today, I’m inspired to keep an even tighter grip on the handrail, and maybe I won’t find myself blipping over to the great and spacious building to survey the view.
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I love to read comments from people who visit my blog, but I have tended to end my thoughts with a summation that closes the door to the very insights I’d love to hear from others. So I’m turning over a new leaf, and I’m going to end each entry with a question, because I’d love to hear your experiences and thoughts too.
How has your journey toward a oneness with the Savior been interrupted by blipping over to the great and spacious building, what does the view look like when you get there, and what do you do to get right back?
David
April 14, 2012
I’ve thought of this frequently and it reminds me of “jumping to conclusions” in The Phantom Tollbooth. When I’m self righteous and critical I know I’ve made that jump…
Brenna Woodbury Williams
April 14, 2012
This was interesting to read after just having returned from camping where I again had a panic attack in the middle of the night in my tent (that has happened nightly the last few times I have been camping), and I flipped out because it was confining, and dark, and there was no way to see light or tell time or get out of the darkness and the tent wall is 3 inches from my face and I can’t breathe. And in said panic attack, I unzip my way out of the trap-of-panic-tent and bolt off running to anywhere that is open and clear and where I can turn on my flashlight without disturbing others. Just thinking about those people wandering in the fog and dark…oh, the panic comes again and I have no words. If only that kind of panic happened every time I left the metaphorical path, I’m pretty sure I’d be hanging on for dear life and once I reached that clearing with the light, there would be no way to get me back in the dark abyss. And if I am going to be in the building, I consider it merciful that I can just pop back and forth virtually without having to remain in the muck. That mucky part to me is the epitome of hell.
Ray
April 14, 2012
Yes, I think we miss one of the central aspects of Lehi’s dream when we fail to see how quickly we can go from one place in it to the other – from the iron rod to the great and spacious building and back. Sure, we can walk steadily toward one or the other, slowly and incrementally – but we also can tesseract (if I’m remembering the term correctly from “A Wrinkle in Time”) from one to the other, as well, with just a mental shift and/or commitment.
I’m sure I will be linking to this post on my own blog at some point in the future. Thanks!
yarell1972
April 15, 2012
i like the post. thought provoking. another way i’ve sometimes thought about the rod is not as being in a set location far away from the building, but always being near wherever you are, and all you have to do (no matter your spot on the path, in the darkness or in the building), is to reach out and take hold, and it _can_ lead you back onto the path … provided you keep holding on and don’t let go again.
Bonnie
April 15, 2012
David, I haven’t read The Phantom Tollbooth in ages; I’m going to have to go find that now. I remember loving it.
Brenna, I sympathize with your anxieties. So many of my times engulfed in the smothering mists of darkness have been anxious on so many levels. I like thinking of that anxious panic in terms of letting go of the rod; I think it helps us understand ourselves and each other and is a remarkable tool for describing the desperation of that situation.
Ray, I have been telling myself for ages that I’ve got to read Wrinkle in Time. Sounds like my reading list is growing.
Scott, I really love a movable rod theory too. Like my bowls of candy, the rod will just appear too!
ji
April 25, 2013
One thing I have tried to do is to discipline myself to remember that any talk I hear in General Conference or anywhere else is a gift from the speaker to the audience as a whole, and in a way, to me in particular — the gift might be exactly what I need, and I’ll receive it joyously; or the gift might be something I don’t need and I’ll quietly put it in a closet, so to speak, without offending the speaker. But I never, never, never want to use that talk as a club to beat across my neighbor’s head. My path to oneness with the Savior is mine, and yours is yours, and we help and sustain each other — allowing some charity for others is essential to my own growth — D&C 121 teaches this — if I am filled with charity to all, and especially to the household of faith, then the doctrine of the priesthood will distill on my soul like the dews from heaven. That kind of learning is precious above all, and strengthens faith in the Lord Jesus Christ.
laniwendtyoung
June 23, 2015
I appreciate this insight. Especially the reminder of how fluid our position in the “dream” is. How easily and quickly I can be in the spacious building…all while feeling secure in my calling as a RS Pres etc, as I make unChristlike judgements of others – and then leap back to my spot on the path holding to the iron rod.
Chris Bodmer
October 3, 2018
I like your idea of “blipping”, I had never thought of it that way. For me it’s more about the mist that covers us and makes that iron rod slippery (difficult to grasp). When I find myself surrounded by temptations I know that I must pray, study, and have faith.
As for “blipping”, whenever I start feeling sorry for myself I know that I am looking at my situation from a selfish and worldly view… To blip back I do an act of service. In written form it all sounds so neat and easy doesn’t it; the struggle is real.